My Failures

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We think we are made of numbers, percentages on tests, pounds on a scale, likes on a photo, price tags on clothes, but we’re not. We are made of love and happiness and the way we laugh. We’re made of our thoughts and the way we view the world. We should never be defined by our situation but rather by how we respond to the situation we’re in. Thanks Purdue for bringing such a cool opportunity to campus and that you to the Dear Wold organizaiton for teaching an enlightening everyone around them.

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Be There

Nothing is ever simple

The timing’s always off

but that’s okay with me

there is no better trade off

I’ve always been afraid to get too close

to let someone in and commit 

but being with you is different

which is very hard for me to admit

Even if we never end up together

everything happens for different reasons

maybe it would be for the better

but everything seems to change with the seasons

for now I’m happy being your friend

there’s nothing that I hold more dearly

than the people I love being happy

and I mean that most sincerely 

maybe we are meant to be, 

but there are things you don’t know

the reasons I am reserved

that I usually try not to show

What I usually try not to show 

people always say it doesn’t make a difference

but I need someone who’s more understanding than most

someone who will be there for me

when I’m haunted by my ghosts

– MP

I feel awkward

The idea of creating a blog is much more enticing than the actual action of putting yourself out there and well doing it. I feel like I have a lot to say however I’m worried no one is going to care because well why should they, but I guess I’m doing this mainly for myself. I’ve been struggling through life, feeling uninspired by everything, and this is my new year 2018 pledge of finding the happiness in life again.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not a depressed person (anxious maybe but not depressed). I just feel like I’m just existing in this life and recently have been pressed with the issue of what I want to do when I graduate college. It’s not that I couldn’t get a job using my degree (which is chemical engineering), that just sounds increasingly boring and that I might end up hating my life.

That’s what I’m scared about most in this life; that I’m going to mess up the only chance I have at one.

So if you’re like me and have no fucking clue what to do with your life, or you just feel like you’re not living the biggest possible life that you could, please stay tuned and hang out while I utilize my first amendment right in the pursuit of happiness over this next year.

And lastly, I feel like I should leave with some sort of catch phrase. Like Ellen Degenerous always says “be kind to one another” so I guess I’ll just leave you with the only thing I can think of…..

…. Always dab on them haterz

Quote of the Day: “If it scares you, it might be a good thing to try” – Seth Godin

Cover Photo: This picture is to symbolize me headed off to new adventures, it was taken in Madrid on a bike while I studied abroad last spring.